well, i just got a lecture for sy. which is quite mind opening. it really made me see things straight and i really need to sit down and think ... think think think.

like he said, not all relationships are perfect and of course i agreed. but i cant love a person i already lost feelings for right? so yeah. he asked me to move on with my life and just be myself. whatever that come, will come. sigh.

i've already told myself that day, to move on from jac. and seriously, i have and its been such a wonderful turn of events. i stopped hurting myself, crying myself to sleep and such. its good. i just needed to realize that one person cant take over my whole life.

so now ... now i just need to think things straight. i dont like hurting other people and being the person i am ... its hard. all i can say is ... ill see how it goes. if everything turns out ok, then it will, if not, then ... fuck it.

rick.